with a chicken in my pocket

not really,


the gifted chicken was in my backpack

while I rode my bicycle across the bridge and worried again how it might appear should I get in an accident and there be me parts and barbecue chicken parts all tangled up in my bicycle.


so I had a moment earlier when I was off doing that guided meditation thing I am doing as part of the new "diet" (week three about to become week four thankyouverymuch) when, as I was imagining one river flowing into another, larger river I noticed for the first time there were rocks in the smaller one.


I suspect that there are rocks in the larger one and I hadn't considered that before.  And I watched, in my mind's eye, as the water broke around the rock and then gathered again into current on the other side and I also noted that when it did so, a part of the water remained behind. On the surface of the rock, having splashed up and evaporating into the air.


And that led me to thinking about opposition and relevance.


Particularly in my own life. The things I place my self in opposition to and the things I have in my life in which there exists a kind of mutual relevance. And it occured to me that these opposition things are not relevant. And it occured to me that I have a habit of becoming engaged with things that are not relevant to my life. Which begs the question then, how relevant do I see myself in life?


Or more accurately, do I act as if I believe that I am relevant in life?


Do you?


I know for me, I am going through an enormous shedding process in which relevance is coming to the fore. I am finding things that once captured my energy and attention I am letting go of, not completely, because the rock still stays in the water, but it is merely part of the path of the current now. Things that I had not dared to do before - I am doing, because I recognize that they are a reflection of my own relevance in life.


I am beginning to see how easy it is to cease being relevant and to seek things that reinforce that state under the guise of building towards the future. If you, at no point, just are then there is no relevance. You can be relevant and still be moving towards a state of being; but you have to somehow come to the belief and reflective actions that as you are in the present is relevant to yourself and the lives of others around you.


Just thinking....I have assembled my writing area for the city, the chicken is in the fridge and I made a rag and bag punching bag that I am about to go hang feathers off for MK. She was scared of it at first so I picked her up so she could smell it. She smelled it, then I'll be dipped but she reached out and whacked it one. So...cat toys on the bottom, people toys above.


such is life.



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